Spoon Fed

August 15, 2007

Gently curving twisted vines
have been made into a bench
a bench where she sits
untangling,

 

untwisting,
unraveling thoughts,

 

her mind.

 

can not see the strength
this weaving creates,

 

though
she sits atop,
tangled,

 

twisted,

 

beautiful mess
seemingly no start or stop.

 

Invisible rights N wrongs
hidden in the fiber,

fingers are raw
from picking through,

her choice
she chooses fire.

 

Burn the tangled bench
she has built,

cauterize her wounds
any precious metal will remain
not a wedding ring,

a spoon.

 

Force fed her life,
in a submissive frame,

vowing
never to partake again,

starvation
came from a tainted spoon,
and favor from a man
she could not win.

 

sherri h

 

8-08-2007

 

 

The Exchange

August 11, 2007

The Exchange

A link to my Blog, with a short story call The Exchange.

Peace sherri h

Life exist

June 18, 2007

Life exist

I Felt a little love.

May 12, 2007

You Don’t See Me
You forget I heard you lie
when it was not directed at me,
I merely made note of the tone,
your vocal constraints, so I would always know.
I listen, I have gotten good, at hearing words unspoken
I heard how you talk, with venom about someone
so how can I be sure you do not speak of me like this.
I fear you don’t control your own mind, you to easily forget,
times of passion, fist, bruises, lust.
For a brief moment in hours of lust, I felt
a little love.

sherri h

some other time and place

May 12, 2007

In some other time and place
Swaying tall sweet grass, innocence frolics
twirl, spring, tumble, play.

Wide eyed, curious mind, careless to
any woe.

Swaying tall sweet grass, evil sleeps
giant, slumbering, through days.
formidable foe.

Slivered lines, hollow black eyes
wakes, feast devours innocence
soul.

sherri h

Daddy’s little girl/Scariest of things

May 12, 2007

Daddy’s little girl/Scariest of things

When you are born and taken under his wing
become his little shadow, he can not unstring
There is such a bond and to you he sings
To scar away the scariest of bad things

You wouldn’t think for a second as he grows old
There is nothing more important than him to hold
There is such a bond and to him you sing
To scare away the scariest of things

Suddenly you remember that there was a time
he couldn’t be sneaky and leave you behind
but he did, how he did,and it still stings

there is no one to protect you from the scariest things.

sherri h

My foot prints.

May 8, 2007

my meadow

May 7, 2007

Inspired by my Dream of the Me’s

My special place is a meadow,
In my minds eye I used to see
it, a most beautiful place
with gently rolling hills,
blanketed in soft sweet
green grass, next to a
crystal clear spring that
originated from a nearby
waterfall, it curved past my sweet
meadow and past to another
steep waterfall , a sheer cliff.

Faeries swooped gently,
in this beautiful meadow
but having also feared my love
have gone.
All my memories of the beautiful,
collect to my right, slowly pushing.

This beautiful meadow
the one in my minds eye,
starting in a lush forest with
a gentle water fall, just to my right
slowly sweeping past me
to disappear over the Jagged
cliff to my left.

So all these beautiful things, memories
love, friends, they all build up,
the right side is forcing me,
forever closer to that left,over
cliff, ending.

My heart pounds,hands shake
I keep up with this self medicate
I look back over the meadow to
my right, so crowded, glitter under
foot, as it dropped off me during this
planetary push.

Tears dropping, merging with
the water that is now a raging waterfall
looking down looks innocent,
easier, back to the norm.
The light down there invites me
to let go and let my body
tear on the jagged cliff
before merging with cool
refreshing innocence,
tempting light filled with
such sparkle and glitter
this must be where I go.

I don’t want to be alone
to meet the innocence and
regain my beautiful glitter
maybe then begin
to feel worthy again.

Staring back, one last glance
to the right over my shoulder,
all the memories that broke my
peace, pushing me from my meadow
of memories, crushing the soft sweet
blades of grass, as they did my spirit
move one final step left.

Turning a brave face back to the
jagged cliff, so inviting with its
jagged little arms to rip at me
on my way down, straighten my back
throw my shoulders back, shake the last
of my own special glittering essence off,
I gently step forward into air with brave
tears mingling with the waters downward fall,
no one to catch me, the helpless greedy arms of
the jagged rocks jutting out to show me my torn flesh
as I float down towards the light in slow motion, my mind
telling my flesh that this is winning this challenge to be free again.

With the Darkness overhead, floating
slowly down towards the light my mind in
euphoria thinking of what I am escaping,
Drifting in and out of blissful slumber as
I am descending. Memories back in the dark
still try to follow me, stopped in my mind
these visions from which I flee, deviations,
little snippets of the all that could have been,

I love you precession, Yes I want
you my love, next.
I warned you when we met.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I have warned you too, I told them how
I am different, I see these thing one
should not see, no lies, no worries
then my mind won’t see.

Grabbed by yet another eager hand of jagged rock
pulled back on course, I glance back up to the dark,
that one haunting face gone. How many more deviations
to go, until I reach the light down below.

Mind in
euphoria thinking of what I am escaping,
Drifting in and out of blissful slumber as
descending.

Yet another, I love you deviation
this one more tangible seven physical
years, I will be with you, but. I will have you
but.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
You knew this to be true, you saw me
in action! you pointed it out, you said
I scare you. I am different, I see these thing one
should not see, no lies, no worries
then my mind won’t see.

pulled back on course,by a jagged rock,
I glance back up to the dark,
that’s two haunting faces gone. How many more deviations
to go, until I reach the light down below.

Mind in
euphoria thinking of what I am escaping,
Drifting in and out of blissful slumber as
descending,

Deviation of mom!!~? I love you
my little child, I will always love you.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I know you do mom,but
always was just too long, I don’t think
you can hear me scream,

pulled back on course,by a jagged rock,
I glance back up to the dark,
that’s three haunting faces gone. How many more deviations
to go, until I reach the light down below.

Mind in
euphoria thinking of what I am escaping,
Drifting in and out of blissful slumber as
descending

Gripped in I love your body,
you feel so good, you are so
nice, 200+ hands.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
You lie! my body is just like the rest,
I knew you all lied, but just look around
not one of you stayed, what are you
grasping for now.

pulled back on course,by a jagged rock,
I glance back up to the dark,
that’s a lot of haunting faces gone. How many more deviations
to go, until I reach the light down below.

Mind in
euphoria thinking of what I am escaping,
Drifting in and out of blissful slumber as
descending

Echoes of I love you, I want us to
stay a family, we will call, we will write
Mom and Dad would have wanted it that way

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Mom and dad were with me in a dream,
we three together burned down the home
where we were raised, I don’t need this family
I don’t need false hope, or promises of calls, so go away
now let me get back to my fall.

pulled back on course,by a jagged rock,
I glance back up to the dark,
that’s a lot of haunting faces gone. How many more deviations
to go, until I reach the light down below.

Mind in
euphoria thinking of what I am escaping,
Ha!

Look at the light below, faces!
Just look at the light below, I have a secret
I know what makes it glow.
All the mementos, gifts, pictures
Everything!!
I pushed over, on fire to light my
descent and warm me when I am home.
A phoenix rising I am not, Just burning up
peoples memories, so I can just own my own.

pulled back on course,by a jagged rock,
I glance back up to the dark,
that’s a lot of haunting faces gone. How many more deviations
to go, until I reach the light down below.

Mind in
euphoria thinking of what I am escaping,

We are the ones to turn to,
we like to help you get better
we can help you.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Lies! You put me on hold
I cut myself deep and you
put me on hold! And you
Mr. hotline you simply hung up on me.

pulled back on course,by a jagged rock,
I glance back up to the dark,
that’s a lot of haunting faces gone. How many more deviations
to go, until I reach the light down below.

Mind in
euphoria thinking of what I am escaping,
Drifting in and out of blissful slumber as
descending.

Mom we love you, we are just busy
As long as the food is here, and
life is so sweet, why would we
leave you, we told you how much
we liked the way you raised us alone.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Mom is done, you are grown, in my dreams
you push me out of my own home.
Didn’t you say that you should just kill
me? I know the smirk on your faces, but
just the statement killed a piece of me.

pulled back on course,by a jagged rock,
I glance back up to the dark,
more haunting faces gone. How many more deviations
to go, until I reach the light down below.

The light below, is it getting brighter i question my self.
Yes definitely bigger and brighter. The obscure faces
remaining up in the dark, are feeding my fire below,
throwing the once sweet green grass of my meadow
now trampled and brown, over the same edge I went.

Mind in
euphoria thinking of what I am escaping,
Drifting in and out of blissful slumber as
descending.

Don’t go, your fun, so entertaining to watch,
we like to watch nameless, as those
like you destroy themselves, your
taking the fun away from us if
you succeed right now.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

This is just as I though, My destruction
so easy to watch. I am glad I could help,
It has always been my mission to make
life easier for other people. Now goodbye.

pulled back on course,by a jagged rock,
I glance back up to the dark,
more haunting faces gone. How many more deviations
to go, until I reach the light down below.
I think its done, don’t want to remember another
thought, it has been hell on earth, and I have lost
too much.

P.S I had a dream today, that my mom was here
she was helping me fix the house, it had become
so run down.
My neighborhood was in ill repair
and the city was widening the street,
behind me the woods were gone, and the smell
of rotting wood and herbicide burned my bare feet
they were building, new and improved dilapidated homes.

I told my boyfriend that I went for a walk, when really I slept all day,
but he can not hear the tone of my voice to know I am going away.
sherri

Glutton

May 7, 2007

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~ Glutton~

Intemperance shall be the end of all things.

Benevolence from days of youth
learn to detest.

Twirl and flirt
lure venom near.

caustic love
ease the fear.

Common weal long time gone,
Canker~worm one has become.

Crouch down like a Foundling
Cloaked in torn Gown
Eyes, Sad Innocent Brown.

Struck with love
He will take her in
seraphic swaying sedating him.

Move on to new ground
assume Foundling Crouch

Chaste, tame, Medium
More masquerade.
Thirst, done
never quenched.

sherri h

alter ego

yet still lowercase name

May 7, 2007

photo & words by me